The fuck

It has finally happened and the fuckery has reared it’s oblong shaped head.

Everyone fucks up, everyone has an off day and everyone rests comfortably knowing they will indeed make a mistake.

It wasn’t a colossal mistake, it wasn’t one that had dire consequences. Nobody was limping off the field or suffering a monumental breakdown. Nope, this was a wounding of the ego, a blow to the pride, where I was the only injured party.

While my night at the clinic ends at 8 pm, I usually wrap up anywhere between 7:15 and 7:45, leaving me enough time to write my session notes and do my charting. So , I should have tried to better prepare myself for a squeezed in  session at 7:30. 

This gave me no breathing room as a had a family session from 6:30 until 7:30 with a family of 5. The session was going well, I was observing how the children interacted while they played a game and was checking in with Mom and Dad about events since our last session. I had taken some notes, asked some questions and had just assigned some homework that I wanted them to work on during the upcoming month between sessions.

When I looked over and saw that it was indeed 7:30 and I had to do my best to get them out of the office without making them feel thrown out. Especially because I had to give my next client every one of the 30 minutes before the day ended. Which started a small mental brush fire as I already felt rushed knowing that I would have to finish every aspect of my notes during the session as I didn’t want to be the reason anyone was staying past 8.

  So they kids were almost out the door and Mom and Dad were being gracefully rushed out when I looked at the hallway clock & noted that it was 7:03 and not 7:30. I practically exhaled the fuck as my face planted into my palm and I ushered the family back in with apologies and a feebly attempted explanation. With all the confidence I could manage I sat them back down and said with a chuckle, “Now that you’re confident in my superior abilities I’d like to ask you about….”

…..until next week .