I wish I didn’t have to do this. I wish it could have been like it’s depicted in the movies. Where you do such a great job that a job is offered to you before you have time to consider what to do next. Before any plan has been formulated, you already have people intervening to make the process even easier. But , like everything else..this isn’t a movie and it doesn’t pretend to be.
That’s not entirely true, because I was offered a job at my clinical before I left. I loved the clients, the work, the coworkers, the office vibe and the commute. What I didn’t love was the agency policy to hire everyone as perdiem, require a certain number of hours but use the loophole of only paying you for your time in session. This meant that I wouldn’t get paid a single minute for the mounds of paper work I was required to do. Nor would I get paid for any no shows or cancellations. And considering there were days where I would sit there for 7 out of 8 hours in a day because all but I client cancel, I just couldn’t accept. No matter how much I loved about this place , this population, and this work …I simply did not go to school and do this much work to accept a job that could require me to sit in office for an 8 hour day and not have to pay me for a moment of time.
Despite my disappointment at the reality of the situation, I have gotten over it and have accepted that I need to move forward and find another agency and position that will hopefully fit as well. Or at the very least come close to it. Which I have done, but the end result leaves me less than excited as I begin the process of finding a job.
I’ve definelty had the time to prepare for his shit, that’s for sure. I can’t apply to sit the state exam to get my liscense or apply for jobs until my graduation is official. otherwise known as the “conferral date”, which is a whole month after graduation. The arrival of this amazing day means that I can fill out the application to sit the exam with the state. Once that i done I get to literally sit and wait for the application to be processed and be provided the exam dates and locations. I have no idea when this will happen or how fucking long it will take, but I’ve been told to expect a 3 monthish wait. So, fun.
While I wait I can begin to send out my resume and apply for work, but nobody has told me, prepped me or even attemtped to discuss how the fuck that will even go. Technically I don’t know if I should wait until after the exam, but I decided that since permits exist it must be ok to start applying once the conferral date passes.
For those unaware of the process, permits allow you to practice without your liscence. You work under your supervisors liscence, much like your internship, and are only good for a year while you wait for your exam. The very existence of this option should make it obvious if you start looking for work before you sit the exam. But, my obnoxious as fuk brain makes it more complicated. Where one side tells me you have to start looking before because you need a supervisor to get a permit, which makes it obvious that you need to be hired beforehand. It is then that the other side of my brain point out that most people secure a position where they do their clinicals before graduation, and it is this scenario that permits exist for. Since i rejected this option than I should clearly wait until after my exam to send out those resumes.
Anyway, heres hoping that the process becomes less overwhelming and stressful as I muddle my way through it.
…..until next week.
herewesayf&@#k!!! 